Sunday, October 30, 2011

Today I am grateful that the power came on after 12 hours off.

I am grateful for heat and a warm house.

I am grateful for a loving husband and a good dog and a warm meowing cat.

I am grateful for good tv shows and movies to take my mind off of my chemo.

I am grateful for people whose lives touch mine.

I am grateful for the sound of laughter and the feel of it in my body.

I am grateful for Keith who drives Jeff where he needs to go when I don't feel like moving.

I am grateful for eyes that see and ears that hear and a heart that feels.

I am grateful for how much Minnie meows and how pitiful it sounds.

I am grateful that I don't understand what Minnie needs.

I am grateful that I can be there for Minnie now that she is so old.

I am grateful for my mind and spirit which is healthy and alive.

I am grateful for my strong body which is getting me through these treatments.

I am grateful for my writing and my creativity.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Today I am grateful that my stomach is starting to be wonky already.

I am grateful that Jeff was ok after his fall yesterday morning.

I am grateful that I have mouth sores from the chemo, but not too bad.

I am grateful that it's going to snow tomorrow.

I am grateful that I feel well enough to do the grocery shopping.

I am grateful that people are really signing up for the June retreat.

I am grateful for my fears about death and living and what is next for me.

I am grateful for Keith who drives Jeff where he needs to go.

I am grateful for Colase and Immodium which are keeping me on track.

I am grateful that the cold weather is finally here.

I am grateful for my SOFT new blanket.

I am grateful that Minnie laid down with me on the big bed last night for an hour.

I am grateful for the comfort I receive from the animals.

I am grateful for my affirmations work.

I am grateful for this laptop and this quiet house.

I am grateful that Jeff is gone for a few hours.

I am grateful for autumn leaves and bright colors outside my window.

I am grateful that I can't take walks or stay outside for very long right now.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Today I am grateful that I skipped a day of this practice.

I am grateful that I was able to help Jeff today when he fell on the ice.

I am grateful that winter is coming.

I am grateful that we have a warm house and plenty of heat and good food.

I am grateful that Raj came by this noon for food and water.

I am grateful for the Mythos Journey class that Cat is leading.

I am grateful for the power of story.

I am grateful for the work I got done this morning.

I am grateful that I haven't had a BM in three days.

I am grateful for the colors of autumn.

I am grateful for my life.

I am grateful for the story of Inanna.

I am grateful for the joy that lives within me.

I am grateful for the uncertainty that is painting the background of my days.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Today I am grateful that I can get another treatment under my belt today.

I am grateful that my stomach is not as wonky today as it was last night.

I am grateful for the supplements that are helping me through all of this.

I am grateful for a new day!

I am grateful for my new theme song "Feeling Good" by Adam Lambert.

I am grateful for Cat Caracelo's new online class, Once Upon a Mythos.

I am grateful that I have time now to create.

I am grateful that I haven't sat down at my art table in weeks.

I am grateful that there is something wanting to emerge and I don't know what it is.

I am grateful that Sasha Loved me so much.

I am grateful that she is still present in my heart.

I am grateful that it still stings and aches when I realize she isn't here.

I am grateful for these strong feelings.

I am grateful that I keep putting off sitting at my art table.

I am grateful that I always "save the best for last" when it comes to my creativity and my art.

I am grateful for all the creative ideas that are still gracing my mind!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Today I am grateful that usbphoneworld has not given me a refund yet for the battery I returned TWO weeks ago.

I am grateful that they keep promising me a refund but I don't see it on my credit card.

I am grateful that I have enough money for what I need right now, today.

I am grateful that I woke up with tears for missing my dear Sasha.

I am grateful for the release that tears gives me.

I am grateful for Immodium.

I am grateful that the gastric stuff isn't grinding me to a complete halt this go-round of chemo, because of the immodium.

I am grateful that I am feeling achy and tired even tho it is only 9:30 in the morning.

I am grateful for the contacts I have that make my business so wonderful.

I am grateful for my husband's care and love.

I am grateful for Suzy's funny antics.

I am grateful for good movies and television that makes me laugh.

I am grateful for our comfy couch and beautiful living room.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Today I am grateful that I am so tired.

I am grateful that I slept for 6 hours straight.

I am grateful for the Jan Berlin guided imagery that I listened to at 4:30 a.m.

I am grateful for the healing that is coming to me from beyond the beyond.

I am grateful that all of my hair is gone now and I am so grateful for the scissors.

I am grateful that the 300th issue of Soul Treasures is coming up.

I am grateful that I miss Sasha so much.

I am grateful that I had a bowel movement this morning!

I am grateful for Lucky Charms.

I am grateful for my strong body.

I am grateful for a comfortable bed and pillow.

I am grateful for this laptop and for my SoulCollage work.

I am grateful for good friends.

I am grateful for another crisp autumn day.

I am grateful for what I am learning about the relationship between fear and love.

I am grateful that I am so congested.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Today I am grateful that I had to take a sleeping pill at midnight to get to sleep.

I am grateful that I only had to take ONE because last chemo I had to take two.

I am grateful for a good night's sleep.

I am grateful that I have work to do that is quiet and meaningful.

I am grateful for a golden October day.

I am grateful for Suzy who lies sleeping at my feet.

I am grateful for Jeff who is a constant support for me in my weariness.

I am grateful that my hair is almost gone.

I am grateful that I have a nice wig and some cute hats to wear.

I am grateful that no one in this house cares if I am bald or almost bald or not.

I am grateful for the internet which keeps me connected with my community.

I am grateful for the supplements that are keeping my energy up and flowing.

I am grateful for the energy healing session yesterday with John Corsa.

I am grateful for the messages about love and how it all boils down to the fact that we are love and will always return to love.

I am grateful for the smile on my face right now.

I am grateful for always having enough of everything that I need.

I am grateful that I still don't know what's ahead of me gastronomically in this round of chemo.

I am grateful for my nurse Ellie.

I am grateful for the care I am receiving at Lahey.

I am grateful that I am heading towards many more years of good health and inner joy.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Today I am grateful for time to rest and relax and be kind to my body.

I am grateful for my health and well-being.

I am grateful for the beautiful music that is pouring into my ears.

I am grateful for the love that I breathe in in this moment.

I am grateful for my writing practice.

I am grateful for Melody Beattie.

I am grateful for my rich resource library of guided imagery meditations.

I am grateful for Jesus and Mary Magdalene being back in my inner world.

I am grateful for Lucius and Mother Joy.

I am grateful that Elizabeth Cunningham has written a new book!

I am grateful that I have to wait three weeks til her book comes out!

I am grateful that my hair is still coming out and that I chopped it off last night and now my hair is very short and cute.

I am grateful that insurance pays for most of my wig.

I am grateful for the cute little hats I bought a few months ago.

I am grateful that I have energy to do some errands today.

I am grateful that Jeff is gone for the morning and I have the house to myself.

I am grateful that I am loved.

I am grateful that my heart still longs for Sasha.

I am grateful for the 18 years that Sasha and I were together.

I am grateful that I keep drawing Scooter's card in my daily readings.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Today I am grateful for another chemo treatment.
\I am grateful that my hair is coming out in clumps in the shower and in my brush.

I am grateful that I am having chemo.

I am grateful that my life is slowing down because of the cancer and the chemo.

I am grateful for the care that Dr. Belanger is giving me.

I am grateful for the hope that he is giving me.

I am grateful for the quilt that hangs in the lobby of Lahey.

I am grateful that I don’t have to drive to the chemo.

I am grateful that I will see a different doctor today.

I am grateful for David.

I am grateful that Jeff is also having health challenges now.

I am grateful for good tv which is a distraction.

I am grateful for anything that makes me laugh.

I am grateful that I don’t know how I’m going to react to what is next.

I am grateful for the comfort that Suzy and Minnie and Jeff give to me.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Today I am grateful for a good night's sleep.

I am grateful that my hair is still coming out.

I am grateful that I can pick up my new wig today.

I am grateful that someone invented wigs so I can look better.

I am grateful for guided imageries by Jan Berlin and Martin rossman.

I am grateful for my community of support within SoulCollage.

I am grateful for color and sound and beauty all around me.

I am grateful for clean fresh air.

I am grateful that I don't have to travel now until next April.

I am grateful for my family.

I am grateful for Sasha's place in my life, then and now.

I am grateful for the ringing in my right ear which never goes away.

I am grateful for things to look forward to.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Today I am grateful for my itchy left eye.

I am grateful for the migraine aura I experienced while ironing.

I am grateful that even though it's a GORGEOUS day outside, I'm not going out because I feel crappy.

I am grateful for Immodium!

I am grateful that I work at home now and can pace myself accordingly depending on how good or crappy I am feeling.

I am grateful for Cheryl.

I am grateful for Cynthia's offer of a free healing session with John Corsa.

I am grateful for my KaleidoSoul community.

I am grateful for this comfy chair.

I am grateful that Minnie likes to sit in my lap for short periods of time.

I am grateful for the comfort she brings me.

I am grateful for the black and white cat who is still coming to our front porch. I am happy that I can feed him!

I am grateful that I am hungry right now.

I am grateful that everything I need really is being provided to me.

I am grateful for long naps on the bed with Suzy.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Today I am grateful for the walk on the beach.

I am grateful that my 2 day bout with constipation is over!

I am grateful that the sun is out even tho they said it would be raining.

I am grateful that M is safe.

I am grateful for a good breakfast.

I am grateful for this time away.

I am grateful for my stepchildren.

I am grateful for Jeff's support in all ways.

I am grateful that today will never come again.

I am grateful for my laptop.

I am grateful that I always have enough food and shelter and money.

I am grateful for good books to read.

I am grateful for spending time with J and M this week.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Today I am grateful for a good night's sleep.

I am grateful for beautiful music.

i am grateful for the visit with John and Maryann yesterday.

i am grateful for laughter.

I am grateful that it's not raining.

I am grateful that I didn't have diarrhea yesterday.

i am grateful for my husband Jeff.

I am grateful for dreams of Sasha.

i am grateful for my sadness.

i am grateful for the unpredictability of the chemo's side effects.

i am grateful for a little solitude this morning.

i am grateful that we never had to stop for an emergency bathroom visit yesterday.

i am grateful that i am not alone.

i am grateful for my business, KaleidoSoul.

i am grateful for my assistants, kate and kimee.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Today I am grateful for the sound of the ocean outside our window.

I am grateful that my stomach still feels wonky.

I am grateful that I haven't had diarrhea today.

I am grateful that Ellie answered the phone when I called the chemo desk yesterday.

I am grateful for this time away from the usual routine.

I am grateful for this new idea for a gratitude blog.

I am grateful for Melody Beattie.

I am grateful for good novels to read.

I am grateful that I am so afraid of dying.

I am grateful for my journaling practice.

I am grateful that these smaller jeans fit me.

I am grateful that life is sometimes hard.

I am grateful that I don't know who I am sometimes, that these treatments mess with my head as well as my body.

I am grateful for my SoulCollage work.

I am grateful for this change to pause and re-evaluate my life.

I am grateful for saltine crackers and campbell's chicken soup.

I am grateful that I have lost my left breast.

I am grateful for the joy and comfort that Sasha gave and still gives me.