Today I am grateful for the cold I've had for a week.

I am grateful that the sore throat only lasted two days and that I didn't have to go to the hospital for strep.

I am grateful that my nose is slowly declogging.

I am grateful for my strong, wise, conscientious, financially astute husband.

I am grateful for all the prayers for healing that are coming in.

I am grateful for guided imagery.

I am grateful that I don't know where Raj is.

I am grateful for Spirit.

I am grateful for these new learnings I am experiencing.

I am grateful that i am still slowly losing weight.

I am grateful that there is nothing good on tv this week.

I am grateful for the ending of a year and the beginning of a new one.

I am grateful for my inner life.

I am grateful for all the books that are finding their way to me.

I am grateful for the steady income I am producing.

Today I am grateful for how poorly I've been eating and sleeping.

I am grateful for this laptop.

I am grateful for how good I am at entertaining myself.

I am grateful that Jeff's lymphoma is so slow-moving.

I am grateful for my journal keeping practice.

I am grateful for Jeff's health.

I am grateful for my strong body.

I am grateful for Minnie's sweet head.

I am grateful for Amazon.com.

I am grateful that Raj wasn't here today.

I am grateful that it's not very cold outside.

In the Meantime...

I just want to clarify that when I don't post my list here, I am writing them longhand in my journal during my Quiet Time!

That being said, here is my list for today:

Today I am grateful that I didn't get a cold.

I am grateful that my stomach is wonky but not as wonky as it was.

I am grateful for having a warm place to sleep and a lovely roof over my head.

I am grateful for finding the Christmas Tree bubble lights.

I am grateful for my husband.

I am grateful for the company that Suzy and Minnie offer me.

I am grateful that Raj trusts me.

I am grateful for all of our Kindred Spirits.

Today I am grateful for my wonky stomach.

I am grateful that I ate compulsively yesterday and my stomach is even wonkier now because of that.

I am grateful that I cannot go to Tori's birthday party today because I am at the low end of my chemo cycle.

I am grateful that I have chosen not to go to Tori's party today.

I am grateful that I don't know where Raj is.

I am grateful for each breath I take.

I am grateful for things to look forward to.

I am grateful that I am getting my affairs in order, just in case, so I can rest easy if I were to die sooner than expected.

I am grateful for the books I've been reading.

I am grateful that we are going shopping (groceries) now and getting it over with.

I am grateful for another quiet day.

I am grateful that I only have 4 more chemos left.

I am grateful that I don't know what the future holds.

I am grateful that I don't know what to do about getting what I need from Jeff.

Today I am grateful that I'm not having "flulike" symptoms AT ALL, just fatigue.

I am grateful for the tiredness.

I am grateful that my body is strong enough that I could walk with Suzy this morning.

I am grateful for what I am learning about imagery and my body.

I am grateful that the weight is still coming off.

I am grateful that my stomach is wonky.

I am grateful that there are still foods that appeal to me.

I am grateful for a good night's sleep.

I am grateful for advil pm.

I am grateful for Elaine's thoughtfulness.

I am grateful to Suzy's company.

I am grateful that Jeff is gone all day and it is so peaceful and quiet here.

I am grateful for the deep knowing that it takes much solitude to balance me.

I am grateful that I have access to Friends and Gilmore Girls DVDS which entertain me no end!

I am grateful for this year that is ending.

I am grateful for a year of new beginnings.

Today I am grateful that I woke up tired and with mouth sores from the chemo.

I am grateful that the glutamine powder I have to take tastes awful.

I am grateful that I didn't have diarrhea yesterday. Or constipation.

I am grateful that one of our customers initiated a claim with paypal that he didn't receive his package without even emailing us first.

I am grateful that Kate is with me to handle all of this.

I am grateful that I am now out another $40 in my income this month.

I am grateful that sales are going slowly this month.

I am grateful that only a few people have renewed right now.

I am grateful that when I got up this morning Jeff was sitting on the loveseat with the DOG petting her and petting her, and yet he hasn't touched me in two days.

I am grateful that I am angry about the lack of physical touch.

I am grateful that I don't know how bad the chemo backlash will be today and tomorrow.

I am grateful to pour this out on the page.

I am grateful that Raj let me feed him this morning.

I am grateful that Raj didn't let me wipe the gunk from his eyes this morning.

I am grateful for Advil PM which helps me to sleep during my worst chemo days.

I am grateful for the uncertainty of life.

I am grateful for having to go thru the crappy stuff to get to the bright side.

I am grateful for my strong, healthy body which has gotten me through SO much.

I am grateful for Dr. B who is helping my body to right itself after the cancer.

Today I am grateful for another renewing member at KaleidoSoul!

I am grateful for my wonky stomach which is trying so hard to process food on top of chemo.

I am grateful for strange dreams about stepchildren and husbands without a voice.

I am grateful for healthy, happy stepchildren and grandchildren!

I am grateful for the lessons in self-forgiveness that I am learning.

I am grateful that I have a space where I can shut the door and be truly alone.

I am grateful for dreams for the future.

I am grateful for Mark Nepo.

I am grateful for the ability to express my thoughts and feelings and experiences in words.

I am grateful that I have an audience for my words.

I am grateful for loving family and community that surrounds me.

I am grateful for the healing energy of John Corsa.

I am grateful for the hundreds of people around the world who are praying for me and holding me in Spirit and healing energy.

Today I am grateful for quiet time in the morning to write and read and relax.

I am grateful for the Chicken Soup/Soul opportunity.

I am grateful for Janet Conner for showing me the deep soul writing way of writing.

I am grateful for all my Bright Ones.

I am grateful for creative energy and the ideas that just keep flowing to me.

I am grateful for every prayer and every single ray of healing energy that is being sent my way.

I am grateful for every supplement which is changing the chemistry of my body away from cancer and towards pure health.

I am grateful for beautiful relaxing music in my ears.

I am grateful for these headphones so I don't have to listen to the inane chatter of our neighbor and my husband in the kitchen.

I am grateful for a good night's sleep.

I am grateful that I don't have achy muscles this morning.

Today I am grateful that the chemo is finally hitting me and I can feel the energy leaving my body and that I am getting achy from the chemo.

I am grateful for DVDs of The Gilmore Girls and Friends that are keeping me entertained and laughing and occupying my mind when I don't feel well.

I am grateful for my friend David who is offering to take us to A Christmas Carol this year.

I am grateful for my life, my journey, my family and friends.

I am grateful for my body which is strong enough to withstand these chemo treatments.

I am grateful for Raj who has found a warmer place under the shed.

I am grateful for this soft warm blanket.

I am grateful for clean sheets.

I am grateful for warm baths and afternoon naps.

I am grateful for Suzy's loving attention and Minnie's soft soft fur.

Today I am grateful for a quiet afternoon of feeling good to get some work done.

I am grateful for Gilmore Girls on DVD!

I am grateful that I only have 5 more chemos left.

I am grateful that the Scentsy cinnamon really smells so good.

I am grateful that I could sleep with the window open every night this week.

I am grateful for each and every Kindred Spirit member.

I am grateful for slanting afternoon sunlight.

I am grateful for the healing that is happening inside of me.

I am grateful for Jeff's love and care.

I am grateful for Kate's assistance.

I am grateful that Ellie is my nurse.

I am grateful that Dr. Wolff is my doctor.

I am grateful to be in this chemo cocoon.

I am grateful for new ideas.

I am grateful for learning what the truth is, and who I am deep down inside.